i remember

I
remember
when you were a nice person

Slap

and when the slap finally came - it was only then i realized

i had no idea where i was

how long had i been asleep

like it never happened

i watched you walk away without you knowing i was there - i longed to shout out - to see you turn and smile and wait for me - i ached for that feeling that held us together so tightly through so much

and instead

i just stood silent and watched you walk feeling like our yesterdays never happened - feeling like a familiar stranger to whom you'll never speak again

so i stood silently

without words

and just watched you walk away

sometimes waking up is hard to do

i wake up everyday
feeling like
i never really meant anything
to you

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has spent his life repeatedly binging like a rabid beast on forbidden experiences, stolen moments, and elusive dreams only to find himself invariably purging the rancidly indigestible delusions illusions and confusion left behind when reality returns to rule her unforgiving kingdom of truth

- insight is a terrible thing to waste-

tell yourself whatever you like

reality is what it is despite your perceptions distortions and rationalizations

- the truth is not negotiable -