now matters

sometimes
i feel like

these are my last days

that the proverbial end

is near

-

not

in an out of control

weepy fear invoking hopeless prozac kinda way

-
in

a gentler

more profound way

-
and i find it

strange

how benign

and quietening it is

to feel

the thready pulse of now

give way

to a vacuous sense of entropic impermanence

-

that's all i wanted to say

about that